I have always wanted to live my most authentic life. I think that in my life, I have always been protecting someone. I want to tell you that my whole life, I have been a keeper of secrets. In fact, this blog is a dream come true. It is a wonderful thing to be able to write this blog and to be so transparent, crazy and authentic. I am so thankful to have some of you reach out to me and talk to me, write comments, message me, and leave comments. Thank you so much. Thank you for living your life with me.
I started this post with another intention in my heart. But something happened. As you know, I work at my church doing Summer Arts Festival, our version of VBS. Usually, I see SAF as a mixture of work and exhaustion. This year is different. This year I come with a new perspective.
I have always been so grateful to have a church family like Trinity Bible Church. It was my desire and prayer that I would find a church that I could call a home. I knew the type of church I wanted to go to. I wanted a church that wasn't too big. In New York, we were going to Times Square Church for a good while. I love Times Square Church but it was just so big. Trinity is great.
We have been going there for about 10 years coming up this year. I love meeting the new people and seeing kids that were babies a decade ago and now they are big.
I was thinking about being happy today. I mean, I was happy and I am happy now. I think Trinity has a lot to do with it. I remember my husband dying on a Tuesday and on Wednesday I was at church. There was no other place I would rather have been. I miss my people when I am not there. I miss sniffing babies (don't ask). I love giving and getting hugs. Today when I showed up for SAF, this sweet girl was so happy to see me. She gave me such a hug. I love that!!! Such a blessing! This year as I serve, I am thankful. Imagine what my life would be like without my church family. Imagine what it would be like without my community, without my people. I thank God for the ability to serve in my church.
How does this relate to dating? Well, here's my thought. I am not alone. I have God. I am not lonely because I have my family of believers to encourage me, listen to me, hold me while I cry, offer me and my children hospitality and the ability to show that we are useful and loved and needed. If someone out there in the dating world doesn't see that in me, it is okay!!! I am secure. I am so loved. In fact, someone texted me that the other day. You are so loved. I love this experience because I'm finding I'm picky. I can afford to be picky. According to Maslow's Hierarchy of Need, I have a lot of needs already being met. The adage for me goes, "I'm too blessed to stress." So... I'm facing tomorrow. I'm going to SAF. I'm going to be going on dates... lunch dates, coffee dates and hang out dates with the people of my church. I'm just so thankful. Praise the Lord!!!