There is something about red lipstick. When I look through my lipstick case, I go through all of the colors and there is a dominance in the color red. I have four different types of red from the same lipstick company. I have peachy red, bluish red, orangy red, red red. I like taking the red and adding an additional red chrome on top. I want to believe that I have the right kind of lips and skin tone to be able to wear the red lips that I love.
Here is the thing. I don't really like red. I don't have a lot of red clothing. I have one or two red purses and maybe one or two pairs of red shoes. I like my red mixed into some type of pattern. There is something about wearing a red lipstick that empowers you though. I think that my first red lipstick was L'Oreal Colour Riche in British Red Coat. I loved the creamy formula and there was a slight fragrance that added to the allure of wearing my lips red. Red lipstick doesn't do well in the Arizona summers. I bought a beautiful Buxom red lipstick and it melted!!! I found that lining my lips red is the secret to keeping the lipstick just where I wanted it. You need to go a deeper red than the color that you are wearing. I like to make my lips ombre by putting a gold or orange in the inner center of my lips.
In the 90s, I wore my red flannel with blue plaid with my red lipstick. I don't think that my father appreciated that red lipstick. He never really said anything about it. He didn't tell me not to wear it. He definitely noticed when I didn't wear it. I liked to wear my red with navy blue liquid eyeliner. I also had a penchant for this shiny chrome purple eyeliner that I wore a little too religiously. I had this purple and red striped cardigan with a zipper that I would wear all of the time. It's funny the things you remember when you're reminiscing.
When my husband died, I don't think that I really knew how to mourn. What does mourning mean? I really didn't know. Did I wear black all of the time? Do I wear my ring? Do I wear make up? What kind of colors can I wear? I didn't buy the guidebook on mourning. I was told that I make up my own rules. I started by wearing only black and not wearing make up. I was on the bereavement diet. Finally, I had lost my appetite!!! My poor son lost his appetite too. I gave all of my crazy eye shadows away. I gave away all of my great lipsticks. I left the nudes and the boring colors. It lasted a week. I talked about buying that Lime Crime Red Velvetine lipstick.
These days, I wear my red lips. When men comment about about my lips first, I know for a fact that they are not the one. Complimenting my lips first means that they are not the guy for me, if you know what I mean. I'm tempted not to wear my lips so red. I mean, what message am I sending? But I will be nothing less than my most authentic self. Anything less seems false. It seems like me, purple hair and red lips.
I have been changing. I have noticed it. I'm not as concerned with my designer purse obsession. I eat when I'm hungry instead of all of the time. I have lost my will to shop. I only shop when I need something. I recognize myself when I wear my red lipstick. I can trace myself when I look at myself in the mirror with my red lips. I wear my red lipstick for me. I don't always have to wear red lipstick but when I do, I think I feel better.