People talk about Marie Kondo and eliminating clutter. You can't do that until you are ready. I'll give you an example. Here I am and I look at the knick knacks that currently clutter my bookshelf. On it are the little mementos that Santi has given me throughout the years. I don't know if I find joy in that turtle but I remember when my husband gave it to me. Do I throw it out? What about the pictures that are so many that they fill up various storage tubs? There are boxes that are in my garage that I need to go through and I know that they are painful but I need to see what is in there and get rid of what I don't need.
Here is the reality. I have been afraid of movement. I have been sabotaging myself. Online dating? You know that I'm better in person. If I really wanted to meet someone I would have signed up for a meet-up. I'm getting ready to finally finish this degree this year. I've been dragging my feet and I am thanking the people that have called me on it. My children need me more and less. They are coming into their own and I need to make sure that they are understanding the twists and turns that life gives you. My role at my job is changing. I have been at my job for 8 years and with this company for 10. How many more years am I planning to stay? Will everything change once I accomplish my degree?
Even now I am not telling of all of the things that are in store for this year. I have plans. I am working toward stuff. Change is scary. Please be praying for us as we try and navigate our new normal. Pray that I can be a good parent for my children. Pray that I can be a good and effective educator. Pray that I finish what I started and take criticism well. Pray for what I don't share. And I, dear reader, will be praying for you.