Learning

Online dating is both tiring and funny. I laugh a lot.  I laugh even when I'm not supposed to.  I accidentally insulted this guy who is into aliens (how was I supposed to know?) and he blocked me.  I couldn't stop laughing.  It was so funny. I feel bad being mean but it's funny.

Sometimes I feel like I have an internal checklist going on.

Christian-check
Okay-Looking- check
Seems nice-check

I don't know.  It seems like the men all have a check list too.  I read all of the profiles and they all sound similar.  It makes me wonder if all men are after just one woman: Linda Carter as Wonder Woman.

This is what a lot of the profiles want:

Hiker- (I hike!  It takes me hours and I may pass out but I'm willing to try!)
Travel- (I can travel.  I need a passport but I can travel.  Who's paying?)
Fit- (By fit I assume skinny.  I'm not skinny but is that really a problem?  Maybe?)
Funny- (Every now and again I can be funny.)
Compassionate- (I DO NOT have a reputation for being uncompassionate.  Mean? Yes.)
Kind- (That's a stretch...)
Partner in Crime- (Crime?  I won't do any time for anyone.)
Smart- (I can hold my own.  I'm not a Mensa candidate but I'm okay.)
Likes to laugh- Check (FINALLY!!!  Oh but I'm not supposed to be laughing AT you.)

So you would think that I'm taking a crash course in what men want.  Nope.  Not even a little bit.  Why?  Because no matter what, each man still has their own taste.  Everyone wants to drive a car but not everyone wants to drive the same one.  Some people want to drive sedans.  Others like to drive trucks.  Some are only happy in jeeps.  Then you get to the brands.  I mean, a Subaru may not have the same feel as a RAV-4.  It just so happens that I'm a Maybach.  Only a small subset of men will be interested in me.  I'm okay with that.  I know my worth.

The other thing is that I'm learning about myself.  I think I have said this before.  Maybe this is the lesson that God has for me in this season.  No matter what, I am a Child of God.  So, I'm not stressed about dating.  I keep telling people that this is my summer project.  I'm all set to cancel my subscriptions in about a month or so and focus on finishing up this final degree.  I'm working on that when I'm not writing.  At the end of the day, I am at peace and I'm walking this journey.  I am not alone.  I have these two wonderful humans that just so happen to be my children walking with me.  I get to teach them and watch them and help them along their way and it is such an amazing blessing.  My cup runneth over.  Praise the Lord!!!