So... I've started dating... again. I am trying an older app. It's funny because it wasn't really recommended to me but many people that I have spoken to within the last 6 months have told me that they have met their significant other on the app. So, I'm giving it a try. It is definitely different than the other apps. It has aspects of eharmony's quiz that I love. You can start a conversation and they don't totally eliminate the ones you initially pass on. They leave them there for you to reconsider. LOL!!!
I have had a date. Just some guy who was on a rant and I reached out to him. I like rants and ramblings so... I gave it a try. Did you know that 5'8" on my son seems very tall and 5'8" on a guy seems more like 5'6"? I am a solid 5'3". I have now decided that I like taller guys unless you are exceptionally kind and good looking. I'm kidding!!! I'm kidding a little bit. Okay, maybe there some truth to that but don't hold it against me. In any case, the guy was smart and the conversation was good. At the end I walked toward my car and he was behind me. I turn around and he was gone. Where had he gone? Was that him driving out of the parking lot like a bat out of Hades? I called him confused and concerned. I thanked him for the meal and explained that I thought he was walking me to the car. When I got home, I had the last rant I would hear from him. He was mean. He said my reaction to his contrary point of view was that of a 15 year old girl. I had said that I was immature when we were chatting. I don't think I misrepresented myself. He thought it was selfish of me to walk to my car and not notice that he wasn't behind me. He criticized me alluding to being a social scientist and not being credentialed as one... (I was on a research team whose findings were published in a journal.) In the end he said that I was not engaging and insensitive. I responded before I deleted and blocked him. I thanked him again for the meal and the feedback. I apologized for making him feel that I was insensitive. The truth of the matter was that I didn't really like him and I guess it showed. Everything else was him responding to that. Hurt people do end up hurting people. I remembered that and have not taken it personally.
I'm learning about this eating healthy business. I feel better. I have lost about 2.6 pounds in a week, not bad. At least I'm not gaining. However, my kids tend to eat what I eat. The things that I love, they love. They don't eat bread. They can eat bread but they don't because I don't eat bread. They'll eat a sandwich but I have to make it for them as an incentive for them to eat it and I don't really like touching bread. Which means that they are going through the food faster than usual!!! I'm glad because fresh produce does not keep. But I may have to buy gluten filled cookies and crackers to supplement their sweet tooths so I am not fighting over the last raspberry.
My work is going slow and it is easy to get distracted. I just have to keep going. I need to just keep trying to get it done no matter how little or how I feel at the end of the day. Thank you for your prayers. Be kind. Trust in the Lord and be ready to forgive. These are the things that I am learning these days. Be well. Praise the Lord!