Learning Still

I have learned something about myself.  I have learned something about how I go about things in this pandemic.  I get bored when things are too easy and I shut down when they get too hard.  I'll give you an example.  As a younger person, way way back in the day (don't add to the trauma by agreeing), I liked to walk but I don't believe I was very fit.  I was fit in the way that young people are healthier and able to do more things but not necessarily athletic.  In my head, beauty meant Twiggy thin.  If you don't know what that means, it means very very painfully thin.  I would try all of these things in my teenage years to try and get that lean look.  It was hard.  However, I learned a lot about my body.  I learned that it likes to be fed.  I learned that it would rather work out then starve.  I learned that the scale doesn't necessarily tell the whole story even though it is data based (how many people are hating those two words!!!).  I learned to listen to my body.  So...  I am either going to go to an extreme or do nothing at all.  I need to learn how to balance. 

I think of Icarus.  He also had an issue going the medium route.  It's not easy to balance.  It's easier to go all the way in or nothing at all.  Balancing is harder.  So, I am learning to start slowly.  Do what I need to do and start off slow and gain momentum.  Am I learning from Physics?  Pay attention to when it gets hard and leave a bookmark there.  Try it again the next day.  If there is a day that it can't get done the way that I want it to, then try again the next day and don't get locked into putting myself down because it wasn't perfect the day before.  Makes sense, right?  Well, I have to tell myself the same things over and over. There are some lessons I will need for the rest of my life. 

I'm not going to pretend to know what will happen in the future.  There is every possibility that I may not succeed in any of my goals.  But... I am still writing them.  I am trying them.  I am adjusting and I'm working toward them with the grace of God.  I am thankful for opportunities.  If you take a moment, try an think about anything that you have learned in this time.  In the very least, take note of how you will remember it all.  Praise the Lord!!!