I'll leave that question hanging there for a moment.
I'm afraid that I don't have any real answers.
I talked to them about this incident with George Floyd. Since their father's death, they see death as death. The way they make sense about it is that it was his time to go. They believe this because I have taught them that God is sovereign. Then there is the evil conundrum to consider. Because there is sin and evil in the world, the world is broken. The miracle is that anything good can happen at all. I'm afraid that I have contributed to the bad. "Let he that is without sin throw the first stone." (John 8:7) Well, I'm not in the "without sin" column, so I have no right to analyze the thought processes of every individual and all of their traumas. Wrong doing merits consequences. One way or another, there will be consequences. Please Lord, let me not contribute any more evil in the world. And try as I might, I really don't believe that two wrongs will make a right.
I don't have all of the answers. I don't even understand all of the questions. What I don't want is to teach hate out of all of this. God commands us to love and we are to leave justice to those appointed. The ultimate justice belongs to God. He says, "Vengeance is mine." (Romans 12:19) God sees everything. If it was my child, if it was my family member, I would be angry. I would be tired. I am tired now. I understand that I am waiting for God to come. I may die before the second coming. I'm okay with that. I get to go home. I will attest that in this life there is evil. In this life, there is pain. I have felt it. I have done it. Anger hasn't helped me as much as forgiveness has. When people ask me why I believe, I tell them that I believe because I have seen and felt God in my life. It's something that I can't ignore. And for if one minute, I doubt His existence, I don't have to go far to find it again. I look at the sun setting and I know for a fact that there is a God and He loves me. So I will follow Him. I will follow Him like a sheep. We are all sheep. If we aren't following a shepherd then we tend to just be lost. Well, I'm following. You can judge me. You can watch. I am teaching my children to follow and to love. So when someone comes to them asking for grace, they can give it. When evil is done to them, they can forgive and not put any more evil out in this awful world.
I will pray (as if my small prayers can do anything). I will pray for God to bring peace and to allow for something good to happen out of all of this. I pray for justice and validation. I will pray for the families.
Go on ahead and have an opinion if you must. I'm putting this out here so I understand that you could and should criticize. "As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord." (Joshua 24:15)
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