As you know, I contracted bronchitis. On Thursday I went into work and had a relapse. As I was leaving, I started coughing. By the time I got home, I could barely get air in my lungs. I sat. I took my medication. I was good and properly sick. Any plans that I had for the rest of my break had to be foregone. I was down for the count.
For the last couple of days, I have been meditating. I thought that I would start this new year, this new decade active. God had other plans. I spent the start of the year in contemplation and forced stillness. I allowed myself to be cared for by my growing children. I would have panicked. I would have made plans. I would have kept myself busy. I would have spent it thinking who I wanted to be. Instead, in humility, I went to God.
I put away the plans. The holidays snuck up on me and I didn't even think about the new year. I thought about self-care, book lists, meditating. I thought about exercise plans and diets. I thought about new habits and things that I needed in order to build myself up. I am halted. Instead I am thinking of God. Whether I lose weight or gain weight; whether I move or stay; whether I am happy or sad; no matter what, I will cover myself with God. I will read His Word. I will shine His light. I will go where He will lead me. Instead of holding on to myself and building myself up, I will let go and let Him. That's it. Praise the Lord!!!