A Remodel

I've been going through changes.  So many great songs start off that way.  I hear that change is good.  This past month has been rough.  The holidays, getting sick, starting the year, starting the decade, it hasn't been that easy.  I tried to date... again and it hasn't really worked out.  Instead I find that God has saved me from being with the wrong person. For that, I am thankful.  I can't do it without God.  When I get perspective, I'll tell you about them.  

These are some of the things that I'm dealing with this year: I am finishing up my last degree.  I have started a weight lost journey.  I am planning to move to a new house.  I am the single mom of a soon to be middle schooler and a soon to be high schooler.  Yes, I'm a little overwhelmed.  Hello!  Did you know that I'm a little chunky?  I didn't know.  You know in my head I'm a thick badass.  I went shopping with my daughter and they have these mirrors...  Do I even need to tell you?  I looked in the mirror expecting to see the me in my head and some short chunky older woman is looking back at me.  It's like hearing your voice in a recording.  It can be jarring.  I'm working on it now, not to worry.  

When there is an accident or when there needs to be a change in a home or other locale, there needs to be a remodel.  I went through a trauma.  I need a remodel.  So this is what I'm going to do.  I'm going to hang a "WORK IN PROGRESS" sign on my life and I'll give you updates until I get to the next phase.  I guess you could say I was assessing the damage.  Assessing is good.  Now that there's a plan, got to take the first steps and implement.