I'm sitting here thinking of God's Providence and I am humbled. Let me start by saying that being human means messing up, all of the time. We all have our seasons of good and bad. I don't know why things happen the way that they do but I do believe in God's Providence-- God's timing and control over everything.
My son is going away to summer camp. I could almost promise you that I thought it was in June. I was getting reminders on what to bring but I kept it all in the back of my mind. So this past week, my son reminds me that he is going to camp this upcoming week!!! So I go through the list of things that he needs. Here is what I find. My son has outgrown EVERYTHING!!! Almost nothing fits. So while my daughter is at a play date, I took him to try and buy some clothes he'll need for camp. It's like a drop in the bucket.
Then my friend, Janet, who had asked me about a week ago if I would like some clothes for David because her high school grad has outgrew his clothes, texts me to find out if I would like to come over to see the clothes. My son is thin with long legs. He has some... clothes issues. Then throw in the fact that he is picky when it comes to clothes and I am a mom with some clothes problems. Here's the thing. Janet's son is similar to David in build and he has almost the same propensity when it comes to clothes. David left with enough of his type of clothes to last him a year, at least. Shout out to Janet!!!
Here I am being a distracted, forgetful, bad mom and God still looked out for me. Thank you God!!! Praise the Lord!!!
Yesterday I went to church. My daughter was with her friend and they went to their church today. David was working in toddler nursery so I was the only one sitting in our section today. Our Pastor has been talking about Jonah. And he reminded us that God is with us when we are in our own fish. He is with us the whole time. I had forgotten this. I spent the service with tears flowing freely down my cheeks as I was reminded that I am never alone. God is with me regardless of how I feel. It brings to mind this song that was popular way way way back when I was a kid by this guy named Larnelle Harris that is about how God has been in it after all. How do you know but not know? How could it be that I had forgotten? God's Providence to the rescue once again.
I'm in this figuring out season. I am trying to figure out who I am and what I want to be in my mid life. I don't even know what's cool and what to aspire to. I'm just putting one foot in front of the other and trying to hold on the God. And He is with me every step of the way. Thank You, Lord!!!