What do you do to take care of yourself? As I re-invent myself, I'm finding that the things that I need to care for myself are changing. I think I need a better eye cream. I'm considering a facial piercing but I'm scared how it will look. I'm experimenting with the color of my hair. I mean, have you ever needed a change?
I love painting my nails crazy colors. I thought about using gel manicure or fake nails. Am I the only one who thinks of this stuff? I mean, I kept my hair short for years thinking that it suited me and now I can't grow my hair long enough. I think self-care needs to change as you change. I knew this woman who had the same hairstyle and make up for apparently over a decade. She needed a change of self-care. She needed a change.
When you go through a transition, you usually make a change. I remember talking to a hairdresser who told me that most women cut their hair short after a bad break up. I didn't have a bad break up but I am transitioning. I think that this is just part of the moving on part of my life I have gone through transitions before but I think that this is one that I have to do without Santi, so now I need to figure out what I need to do to be me. Not the me of last year or the year before, but the me that is here now.
I was definitely holding on to something. I don't know what it was but I find that I have let it go. I'm understanding more about myself. I have not had a restful weekend in a while and it doesn't seem like I will be getting any rest in the upcoming future. I think I need to make demands on my time because I need time. I need time to rest. I need time to pray. I need time to have fun. What does fun look like now for me? I haven't read a book in ages. Why? I had to think about it. I liked books that talked about hope and love. My favorite genre is Young Adult and Magical Realism. These genres are full of romantic elements. I don't want to read about love. The joy of reading has left me and I have to find another genre to love now. I think the same goes for movies. The movies that are out now are crap but I need to find what I like now.
My advice is to take care of yourself and take time for yourself.