Saturday, August 17, 2019


What do you do to take care of yourself?  As I re-invent myself, I'm finding that the things that I need to care for myself are changing.  I think I need a better eye cream.  I'm considering a facial piercing but I'm scared how it will look.  I'm experimenting with the color of my hair.  I mean, have you ever needed a change? 

I love painting my nails crazy colors.  I thought about using gel manicure or fake nails.  Am I the only one who thinks of this stuff?  I mean, I kept my hair short for years thinking that it suited me and now I can't grow my hair long enough.  I think self-care needs to change as you change.  I knew this woman who had the same hairstyle and make up for apparently over a decade.  She needed a change of self-care.  She needed a change. 

When you go through a transition, you usually make a change.  I remember talking to a hairdresser who told me that most women cut their hair short after a bad break up.  I didn't have a bad break up but I am transitioning.  I think that this is just part of the moving on part of my life  I have gone through transitions before but I think that this is one that I have to do without Santi, so now I need to figure out what I need to do to be me.  Not the me of last year or the year before, but the me that is here now. 

I was definitely holding on to something.  I don't know what it was but I find that I have let it go.  I'm understanding more about myself.  I have not had a restful weekend in a while and it doesn't seem like I will be getting any rest in the upcoming future.  I think I need to make demands on my time because I need time.  I need time to rest.  I need time to pray.  I need time to have fun.  What does fun look like now for me?  I haven't read a book in ages.  Why?  I had to think about it.  I liked books that talked about hope and love.  My favorite genre is  Young Adult and Magical Realism.  These genres are full of romantic elements.  I don't want to read about love.  The joy of reading has left me and I have to find another genre to love now.  I think the same goes for movies.  The movies that are out now are crap but I need to find what I like now. 

My advice is to take care of yourself and take time for yourself. 

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