There's a saying. There's no tired like first week of school tired. There you are, living the life fantastic. Waking up late every morning. Staying up late at night. Getting rest. With the time I had, I was reading and walking. I was taking naps. I made plans and resolutions. The summer was a time of both vacation and stay-cation. I mean, I was making coffee dates and meeting people. I was spending time with my children. Every day was wonderful!!! There is nothing quite like summer for a teacher.
I heard some where how exciting the first days of school are. They were saying how wonderful it is to get school supplies. I'm not excited!!! I see school supplies in stores and I get anxious! Cold sweat pours down my face. It means that my summer is over. Now, I like and appreciate my job, but I'm not bored and waiting for it to start. I miss my time, especially with my children.
I've been back at work for five days. Already I am tired and the students are not back yet. They come on Tuesday. I had all of these plans that in the bright light of summer, were feasible. I have not been meal prepping because I just fall asleep when I come home. I have been eating horribly. I have not been working out. I've been cranky. When I'm tired, I think that I am the worst version of myself. Here I am tired I'm the worst!!! I snap at people I'm judgmental. I'm emotional. Add hungry to the mix and I become the worst person that ever existed.
I think of this in light of Christianity. Matthew 11:28-30 says, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." I make my own interpretation of this which doesn't necessarily mean that I am right. This past week has been busy and I know that it will only intensify. Okay, I think, "God, how do I come to You? What kind of rest are you talking about? I can't stop even if I wanted to and You're going to make this happen?" I question God. This is bad! I doubt God's ability to give me rest. In doing this, I am sinning. I want to be clear about this.
So, I think about my exhausted state. I remember this Bible verse. I'm tired so I go to God in prayer. This is what my prayer looks like, "God, I'm tired. I don't like this because when I'm tired I'm cranky and I eat and act poorly. Please allow me rest or strength. Thank You, God. I love You. Amen." Then I wait to see what that rest looks like. I am thankful because my prayer has been heard. I am grateful to have and serve a loving Father who looks after the needs of His children. Praise the Lord! I'm going to believe that God is going to help me in doing what I need to do. So, my Friends, don't be like me. Trust that God is going to help you too.
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