I have been thinking about the nature of attraction. I have been thinking about what I deem as attractive and who thinks I am attractive and what they find is attractive about me. My lips and teeth are big on the list. Related to this, I get comments on my smile. I normally don't think too much about my teeth and mouth other than applying lipstick. Recently I have started brushing my teeth with a new toothpaste and am proud of the fact that my teeth are shinier and smoother thanks to the new dental cleansing.
I have been complimented on my nail beds and I would have to agree. I have beautiful beds and strong fingernails that make me proud. Of course, my hair is a point of discussion. It's long and curly and I dye it funky colors so many people comment all of the time on my hair. On a side note, I spent the last 23 years insisting on having short hair when long hair suited me this whole time.
I have been called attractive. That's nice, but I don't really care about being attractive. I care about being me, authentically me. I think that the things that are most attractive about people have nothing that can be found on a dating app. When I remember what I liked about some of the people I have loved, looks have very little to do with it. I mean... looks have something to do with it. I used to date this guy who was great but I didn't like his natural smell. I have a sensitive nose and his smell reminded me of a dry, bitter, desert plant.
Attraction is attractive. I don't know what is next to happen. I'm taking a dating break and I'm not expecting to find anyone but myself and God. I want to be liked by someone who will like all of me. Who will love all of me. I want to like all of someone too. If someone is too good looking, I have to swipe left, even if they have liked me first. What am I going to do with someone that good looking? Come on, that's not real. I want to like someone that goes with me. I won't settle. I'm okay not being with anyone if that means I don't get everything that I want. And so... I am happily writing this blog and deciding to be happy in my present state. I am so thankful for God. He allows me to be secure in who I am regardless of my circumstances. Amen and Praise the Lord.