So... I last reported that I had a cold. I dragged my children and myself to the covid testing center. I did it because a cold is enough like covid to get tested. I got the results back yesterday as I was on the golf greens with my guy. David came back negative. Janet came back positive. I was already feeling down. My dear sweet cousin, David Vega passed away yesterday. He was the dj for my wedding. I can hear his deep voice. I was close to at least one of his sons. I would hang out with him on family holidays. Already I miss him. He had a stroke and then caught covid. This virus has stolen a lot from me so far. And just in case you were wondering, my results came back last... negative. Poor Janet!!!
I think about the meager plans we had made for a pandemic holiday. We had thought about going to Glendale Glitters. We were going to go to church for Christmas Eve. We were going to go to Geoff's for Christmas. Now I wear a mask in the car and in my house. Conditions are not ideal.
Then to make the situation worse, I was driving home from getting tested... again and I went by Geoff's to pick up his air fryer. I was thinking about finally making some gluten-free Doritos chicken (Doritos is the devil even when I'm just thinking about it!!!) when I saw the trooper behind me. I was speeding. Not cute enough to get off with a warning, he gave me the ticket and I felt myself start to descend into a spiral. I'm usually okay for the children but dealing with teenagers is a challenge. I mean, where the heck are my sweet compliant children?!! I have been trying to show maturity and self-control but I want to snap at them and their attitudes. They are full of ego. I am lacking the patience to deal with them and I am processing my life.
There are plans and non-plans. There are prayers going up for everyone. This vaccine, this world, this virus is... a lot. I think it is finally hitting me, this Christmas that we are in the middle of a pandemic and it is not fun. I will not try to predict the future. I am attempting to trust in God and do the right thing.
I made the gluten free panko chicken and french fries in the air fryer, along with Doritos chicken and barbeque pork rind chicken. There were a lot of tenders. It's a good thing I have two hungry teens to eat them all! I ate a whole sleeve of chocolate gluten free cookies with warm milk. At some point, I ate not one but two lemon pudding cups with raspberries because they are my favorite. I am all full, finally. I have "Love Actually" on and I'm writing. God is alive and on His throne. I will not despair. I will pray. I will pray for my family who have lost a husband, father, brother and uncle. I will pray for friends who have lost loved ones. I will pray for that one student who is struggling. I will pray for God's will to be done as I try to make decisions and pay for speeding tickets. Prayer works. So I'll do it. Praise the Lord!!
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