Wednesday, March 18, 2020

Thoughts on Being Extra

It is in these quiet times that I can think and process things.  I can reflect on the quarter and I can make plans and feel like I am actually living instead of just putting one foot in front of the other.   It is now that I thought about something a student told me.  "Miss, you are so extra."  At the time I didn't even think about it but now that I'm sitting here, I can't stop thinking about it.  The reason my student said that was because I make them follow the rules.  I call other teachers. I follow up.  This is not being extra to me.  This is me doing my job and being helpful. 

I'm not extra for a lot of other things.  Housework, for instance, I'm definitely not extra.  I need to be!!!  If you look at my size, yes, I'm extra.  It's okay.  You can say it.  I'm working on it.  What if it's a good thing?  What if I like being extra?  Honestly I don't know what it all means.  I did a post a while ago on being too much.  This is different verbage for a similar theme.  I am too much.  I have decided.  I'm a lot.  The same things that are bad that are too much are the same things that are good.  I'm sitting here marinating in my extra-ness.  I love myself.  I love a lot.  Some would even say that I love too much.  I still don't care. 

I am getting ready now.  I have things to do that I have put off.  Being home is good.  I can just... catch up.  Spend time with yourself.  Be extra!!!  Be not enough.  I think this is a good time to reflect on who you are and what you want to be.  If you need anything, I'm here. 

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