I read an article the other day. It was about appreciating being single. An artist used pictures to illustrate all of the things that are wonderful about singleness. I was worried about this. I am getting used to being single.
I woke up in the morning and I looked around my messy room as I was getting ready to leave. It was a mess because my bed was a mess and I had tried on some outfits and I thought, "Man, this place is a mess!" I smiled to myself because there was no one but my children to see it. I don't have to do anything. I could fix it later.
I spent 24 years being in a couple. I had a feeling that I would have a moment in time where I would feel the adjustment, the adapting to singleness. There is something to be said about living a quiet life with deep conversations with God because He is the one that is there. When I have my moments of tears I can cry them out in prayer and there is peace. It comes to me so sweetly that I can't even tell when it happens.
I like wearing lipstick. I can wear any lipstick I want. I had this boyfriend that hated when I wore red lipstick. Can you even imagine me without red lipstick? As a married woman, I compromised. I'm finding that I don't need to compromise as much. The other day for dinner, I had a gluten free bagel thin with cream cheese. My friend invited me out to hang out with her at the mall and I got up and went with my daughter, just like that.
What else can I do? Can I plan a cruise? My Puerto Rican friend from work told me about a cruise that I might like. It sounds amazing!! I could budget and finagle it. There is no consulting about it. You know what!!! Now that I'm thinking about it. I could save up and buy myself a Chloe purse! I don't have to buy a Chloe purse but thinking about the possibility of it is nice.
Now I got to go. I'm having popcorn for dinner. More on this later.