I don't know what came over me but I decided to post a pic on this app called "PhotoFeeler." This is where other people rate you on attractiveness, smarts and trustworthiness. My first picture rated a 3.7/10 in attractiveness. My second picture rated a 4.1/10. I'm analyzing the data. Apparently, I am not as pretty as I thought I was. This answers a lot of questions for me.
Let me be clear. I think that I'm very pretty. I like my face. I think that it is very symmetrical. I look good in glasses and hats. I love that I have full lips and almond shaped eyes. Maybe I think that I'm as attractive as I was when I was younger. I don't age in the way that I see myself in my mind's eye. It helps to get an outside perspective. I like it, outside perspective puts me in perspective.
Here is the other thing. I am not about my looks. I don't know if I was ever about my looks. I like make up, because I like an excuse to wear glitter, but make up is a hobby, not a means to lie to people. I think I translate better in person. You can't hear my snarky responses over a picture. You can't see my funny expressions all of the time in a smiling picture. You can't get a hug over a picture. Here is the thing. I am so much better in person.
The last thing is (and you knew I was going to bring this up) that God doesn't think I'm unattractive. Psalm 139:14 states, "I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well." I know fully well that God made me purposefully. I thought about something else, people have altered their appearance until they no longer look the way that is uniquely them. I want to look like Elle. I want to age like Elle. I want to be Elle. If I had it all together then I couldn't be this hotter mess bless by grace. You wouldn't be you either, consider loving yourself, even if you aren't that pretty.
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