Monday, July 27, 2020

Learning Process

Yes, I have been quiet.  I have been ruminating on all of the matters that are happening now both public and personal.  These are such strange days.  I don't really have a lot of things to say.  Let me change that thought; I have a lot to say.  I think the real problem is that I have too much to say and I'm processing the information so that I can write all about it later... maybe. 

This is quite the year all around.  I can't believe this year has gone down the way that it has, and yet... I am learning so much about myself and about my children.  I cherish this time that I have to spend with them.  They are changing right before my eyes.  This summer has been good, it has been hard and good.  

I'm going to tell you a story as a metaphor for this year.  As a kid, I would try different jobs.  I needed to do this.  I was kind of lost when it came to finding a career.  I started as an Audio/Visual Tech at the college.  I became a waitress.  I remember filling an ad out for "Activist."  It was for the New York Public Interest Research Group (NYPIRG).  It was a paid gig to canvas neighborhoods.  I really needed a job so I went for the paid training and then I canvassed for two days.  I was HORRIBLE at it!!  This other guy started with me.  He was the hero of us all.  He got the most pledges in a single day.  The second day, I gave up.  I called my father and started crying to him on the phone.  My dear dad told me to come home and that we would figure it out some other way.  

I found out that I'm a lousy salesperson.  I am not good at selling things I don't believe in.  I would have never found out this aspect of myself had I never had that miserable job trying to canvas.  2020 is a learning year.  It isn't just a learning year for myself.  It is a learning year for everyone.  We are confronted with the aspects that have revealed themselves about who we are individually and as a nation.  There appears to be a lot of responding and not a lot of processing.  Take a moment, figure out who you are and what you have learned about yourself and others this year?  How will you manifest these changes for the next year and the year after that?  In learning about myself, I am learning about the things that I continue to want out of life.  I am looking at the years that are left to me and I'm trying to figure out how to live as God would want me to, more abundantly  I'll keep you posted on updates.  

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