Have you ever been hiking? Most hills start off low and easy and gets harder as you get to the top. I have climbed some hills in my time. I have gotten stuck close to the top of the summit. This is where I am in my life now. I am close to the top and I am out of breath and cramping. I have to stop often; take it easy and dig deep to finish things off. I need to take one step in front of the other. I can't panic now. I need to buckle down and focus.
There are more issues that I am contemplating. I am organizing my home because I am planning on moving once I am done. My children and I are sifting through all our material goods because part of mourning is decluttering and processing the sentimentality of our stuff. Change is in the air. Did you know that change is scary? It can be. If given the time to respond, I will find time to be afraid. I'm understanding the weak links in my psyche. It is a blessing to know how you are fallible and where you think you can improve.
That being said, life is too short to not do things. That's it. God bless.