There is a song by Demi Lovato that is titled, "Tell Me You Love Me." I resonate with this song a lot. I'm not in the habit of lying, so I will tell you that after Santi died, I would listen to this song with the tears pouring down my face. I put it on before writing this blog. It was so relevant, those days after he had gone. "Tell me you love me. I need someone, on days like this I do."
On work days when I would come home crying, I would go to Santi and I would tell him, "Tell me something good." He would tell me things like: "God is good. You are loved. You are a Child of God. God loves you. I love you. You are not your bad day." There were days when this was not enough. He struggled to tell me the good things. I'm not sure what I wanted to hear from him. Was it a test? Relationships are funny. How easy is it to put all of our emotional eggs in our spouse's basket!
" I lift up my eyes to the mountains- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth."
My friend, Paige sent me this Psalm. She sent it to me out of the blue. You see, these days, when I ask someone to tell me something good, I have to go to God. I pray, "God, in Your infinite wisdom, please tell me something good." God's Word is full of good things, every good thing. Nowadays, I need to be told something good, I go to God and His Word. I know God loves me, even on my worst of days. And because He loves me, I can face tomorrow, even if I'm scared, tired, sad, and/or lonely today. Because He will be there tomorrow too. Thank You, God. Praise the Lord!! God is good!