Santi and I used to love the show, Seinfeld. Whenever George would lose a job, you could find him and Jerry going over the probable jobs available. "I like sports. I could be a sportscaster." Jerry's job was to remind him the feasibility of his plan.
All day long, I remind my students to dream. Recently I was talking with a student. I asked him what he wanted to do. He told me that after graduation he was going to work construction like his dad and uncle. "No." I told him. "What would you do if you could do anything?" His eyes lit up for a minute. I could see him dreaming. "I like to draw, Miss. I would like to do something with fashion design." My heart hurt me a little bit. When did you stop dreaming, Kid?
I have people asking me what I want to do. I can teach K-12... as a last resort. In fact, my boss was like, "Listen, if you leave here only to do what you do hear, what are you leaving for?" I hate to admit it but he is right!!! Don't tell him. I thought I would find myself a quiet classroom with younger, kids but... even now as I write this I'm thinking NO!!!! I have found something out about myself during this time. I didn't mind my job when I was writing IEPs and METs. I didn't mind my job when I was testing. I didn't mind meeting with parents and children. I like meeting with people. I don't even mind teaching but I don't want to cajole or entice. I don't want to get yelled at by the people I'm trying to help for doing my job. Yeah... There's that... I want to help people who want to be helped.
I like words. I like doing a good job. I like being able to do a good job. Does this mean staying in the field of education? I don't know. My first idea of a job was to be a nurse or a doctor like the ons that helped my mother. Then I developed this affinity for words. When I was younger, words were a mystery. I was not a reader but I wanted to read. I learned to love the library and the mystery found in books. I remember going to my library almost every day. I would take home so many books and read them over and over and over again. In 8th grade, I thought of becoming a child psychologist. In high school I thought to become a high school English teacher for at risk students. I thought of being a lawyer and was in the Mock Trial Club all 4 years of high school. In college, I thought to be an accountant but that quickly changed to writer. After I graduated from college I wanted to be a singer. It was only when I was pregnant with David that I allowed myself to think about becoming the thing the career assessments led me to... Teacher. At this moment, I have been all of the dreams and more with the exception of doctor... for now. God is good to me.
Pray that God opens doors. Pray that I listen and follow the right path. Pray for my continued faith in God's perfect plan. I'll let you know what happens. So exciting!!!