Bad Days and Love

It has been hard to write this week.  I have more thoughts than usual, none of them clear.  I had a long terrible day yesterday.  I teach a class, it is the last thing I do in my work day.  Yesterday, it was a hard day.  Today I was tired.  I was tired and my body ached.  I prayed.  This was my prayer: 

Dear God.

Dear God.

Dear God.

Dear God.

Please.

I am not sure what I was praying for.  I think I was praying for the students to behave.  I was praying for strength.  I was hoping that I had the energy to teach in the limited time that I had them with me.  I want to tell them all of the time to take advantage of the time they have.  I want to tell them to be thankful.  I want to tell them so much.  I have a lot to say.  I wanted it to go well though.

God answered my prayer.  The class went well.  On my way home, I was thankful.  I am sitting in front of my computer.  I am aware that tomorrow is Valentine's Day.  It was a favorite of mine.  I used to love my favorite color, pink splattered everywhere with pastels and red spouting the message of love.  It makes me think of my mother who was born on February 14th.  

Next year, I'm sure that no matter what, I will walk into a store and love Valentine's Day once again.  No matter what happens today, tomorrow will be better.  All the tomorrows will ultimately lead to forever.  

II Corinthians 4:18

"So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal." 

The pain in my neck and back, one day, gone.  My students will be grown and so will my biological children..  I will not last long.  How many years do I have in me?  Only God knows.  I write my little words.  I believe in my big God and I breathe in and out.  Until the next post, Friends, love as hard as you can cause life is short. 

So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

2 Corinthians 4:18