What You Are Wondering

I know what you are wondering.  You are wondering why I haven't been writing.  Oh Friends!  I'm tired.  I have been tired.  I don't know what has happened to me. On any given day, I have a myriad of thoughts running through my head.  I start writing and then I stop.  This goes on a few times.  Just this week I have started writing and then stopped.  What was it that I wanted to say?  On any given day, I am plagued, just plagued with so much on my mind. I'm changing but I don't know who I am still.  How can I write about something that I don't know about. 

Single-motherhood- Man I'm tired.  Someone should have told me about the stuff that you don't expect from raising children.  But it's not just that they are my children, it's that they are 13 and 11.  My children already have a lot of energy, it's hard to keep up with them.  When people say that they love children, I'm thinking, "Hey, you want to borrow mine for a day?"  I know this is messed up.  I love them dearly, all of the time.  And if you do want to take them, you need to feed them.  You should know that I spend time hinting when people are planning things.  So far, I've had only one or two takers. 

Healthy Lifestyle- I need to lower my cholesterol by a few points.  I need to lower my triglycerides.  Don't worry!  I have started to drink Cabernet Sauvignon.  If you have anything to say about this, go on ahead.  I don't mind.  I need all of the advice that I can take on lowering my cholesterol within the confines of my day.  I have also started eating more plant based food.  I am meal prepping and I'm trying to drink more water. My son and I will start to work out.  We are going to try to go to the gym in the morning.  I've been doing squats and some lunges.  Strong legs will help me move so that I can keep up with my children.  They're fast!!!!

Dating Men- Men suck!!!  Just kidding.  I don't know who I am, how am I supposed to date?  Maybe I just need to embrace widowhood.  I mean, I start to cry every time I say the word, "widow."  What does that tell you?  Maybe the greater grace is to stay happily single.  I'd be better about it if I didn't see couples everywhere.  I'm going to start a group, Happily Single.  Let me know if you want to join.  It could be a Facebook group!

Degree- I'm tired all of the time, this only makes it hard to do what I need to for my degree. 

Work- I'm teaching this block.  Wish me luck.  That's all I have to say about that. 

I haven't dyed my hair.  I may make some other big life changes.  It's just a rough season.  Keep me in your prayers.  And don't assume.  That's all for now.  God bless.