What a Downer!!!

If I were you, I would stop reading me.  I can read the news to be depressed.  I write to express and process.  I hope that I am reflecting Jesus as I go through good and bad moments in life.  This is my intention. I came to this conclusion because, if I was going to brag about what God is doing in my life, if I was going to talk about his wonderful blessings and grace, then I was going to have to share the hard parts.  The parts that aren't so great.  Right?  That's how you tell a story!!!  I was lost but now I am found.  I was blind but now I see.  How effective would it be if I just say, "I see?"

I'm going to be moving soon.  I hate moving.  This is a stressful thing but I believe that it will ultimately be a blessing.  I pray that God lead us to a good place to lay our heads and I pray that it all works out for us.  This is a stressor for me because it may be a hard transition.  Why are you so tired, Elle?  What's going on?  Well, there's that.

I'm working out.  I don't like working out but I'm not getting any younger and my kids are telling me that they would like me to be around for a while so... I'm going to the gym.  What I tell myself to get ready for the gym is: Elle, think about the incredible "Revenge Body" you will have when you tone up!!!  Look out world, it's not ready for a thinner me!!!  LOL!!! Just kidding.  I'll probably always be thick. 

I'm almost ALMOST done with my last degree and the whole thing is super stressful.  I don't even want to take an orientation class after this.  I'll make an allowance for Bible Study but THAT'S IT!!!  Here is my for real, legitimate prayer.  I just want to finish.  That's it.  I don't even have to finish well.  I just want to finish it and be done. 

I keep on thinking about how happy I will be when I'm done with each thing on my plate.  It's like running a race and crossing the finish line.  It was hard going but I will have done it by the grace of God.  I claim victory.  I pray for strength.  But Man, as I went over my last posts, I could see that I wasn't a hundred percent.  Definitely in my feelings.  So... I took mood enhancers (broccoli).  I drank (water, I was dehydrated) and I took to the streets (or the treadmill to work on those toxins).  I think this is what self-care is all about.  Love you guys!!!  Keep on praying.