Still a Hot Mess

 I'm writing and I am contemplating all of the many moving parts of my current life.  There are a lot of moving parts!!!  I have to stop sometimes and tell myself, "Elle, you are getting married."  "Elle, you are changing."  "Elle, just in case you didn't know, you are still a hot mess."  

I am currently having some type of allergic reaction.  I have just taken allergy medicine.  Just in case you were wondering, I am gluten intolerant.  It would appear that I have contaminated myself with some gluten.  I'm telling you this as further proof of my hot-mess-ness.  I'm attempting to write this blog before the benadryl hits.  If I get loopy at the end, it's because of this.

All of these changes have given me perspective.  There is a lot of perspective to be gained.  At this point about two years ago, I was thinking about dating.  I was contemplating opening myself up to people and I had started my letter writing campaign.  Three years ago, I was grieving.  Last year, I was wondering what would become of me in this Covid world that had just begun.  I couldn't predict any of this.  Please understand that this has to be God, right?  Only God could have changed the trajectory of my life.  This is not me at all.  I can't even stay away from sugar.  Man, when I think about who I am in the grand scheme I am grateful that I have God in my life.  You can see that, can't you?

I am in prayer.  I pray these days mainly for dear friends who have contracted Covid.  I pray for parents who have issues with their children.  I pray for my children and my family.  I pray for the chips to fall in good places.  I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel for some of the stuff.  Thank You, Lord for being in my life.  Man, I love me some Jesus!!!  I highly recommend prayer, especially if you are a bit of a mess or in my case, a hot mess.  I hotter mess on toast.  I need Jesus.  Praise the Lord!