I'm writing and I am contemplating all of the many moving parts of my current life. There are a lot of moving parts!!! I have to stop sometimes and tell myself, "Elle, you are getting married." "Elle, you are changing." "Elle, just in case you didn't know, you are still a hot mess."
I am currently having some type of allergic reaction. I have just taken allergy medicine. Just in case you were wondering, I am gluten intolerant. It would appear that I have contaminated myself with some gluten. I'm telling you this as further proof of my hot-mess-ness. I'm attempting to write this blog before the benadryl hits. If I get loopy at the end, it's because of this.
All of these changes have given me perspective. There is a lot of perspective to be gained. At this point about two years ago, I was thinking about dating. I was contemplating opening myself up to people and I had started my letter writing campaign. Three years ago, I was grieving. Last year, I was wondering what would become of me in this Covid world that had just begun. I couldn't predict any of this. Please understand that this has to be God, right? Only God could have changed the trajectory of my life. This is not me at all. I can't even stay away from sugar. Man, when I think about who I am in the grand scheme I am grateful that I have God in my life. You can see that, can't you?
I am in prayer. I pray these days mainly for dear friends who have contracted Covid. I pray for parents who have issues with their children. I pray for my children and my family. I pray for the chips to fall in good places. I think I see the light at the end of the tunnel for some of the stuff. Thank You, Lord for being in my life. Man, I love me some Jesus!!! I highly recommend prayer, especially if you are a bit of a mess or in my case, a hot mess. I hotter mess on toast. I need Jesus. Praise the Lord!
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