Now that my plans have changed. I think that I need to change. First of all, I now acknowledge that I can no longer eat the way I used to eat and have been eating. I'm not moving the way that I used to and right now, I can't seem to get into the flow of a regular gym workout. I have about three months at the outset to finish this degree up and put it away with the hoopla it created in the back of my closet. Honestly, I'm thinking about what is next but first, I need to confront this weight gain that I have assured comes from menopause. I want to say that it comes from lovin Cheetohs but hey, menopause just sounds better.
Here is what I think I want. I want to read. I used to love reading and because of everything, I felt guilty reading. Now I want to renew my library card and get lost in words. I'm not going to let my poor vision ruin it for me I mean, I have cool glasses! Now is the time to use them.
I thought the book that I would be writing is my dissertation. I still want to write. I have always wanted to write. I love this blog that has allowed me to think about all of my thoughts and feelings. I want to write... part time, at least. Already I thinking of the stories that I will get to write. Already I'm thinking about the characters I'm going to meet and the places that I will get to go. It's like I'm already there. It's exciting.
I would like to get into yoga. I know that there are a lot of Christians that are not a fan of the Eastern practice but I would still like to try it and practice it. I think I would like to become someone that uses yoga to worship God. Blasphemy you say? Well, let's see. I have to try something and yoga calls to me. It may be the pants.
Whatever is ahead of me, I have choices there are things in my power and it is all so exciting. I love it. I am thankful to a God who listens to the deep prayers of our hearts and helps us escape our own way. May I lean more on my Sovereign God.
As for my friend, Menopause, I will be sweating and aging as I was meant to be. Guys, a few years ago I was a heartbroken widow. Then I was a lonely widow. Then I made the decision to date and here we are now and I'm married. Being married to Geoff makes me happy. It's a blessing that we found each other and we are working on our journey to God together as fellow travelers in this life. I am thankful for him deciding to become part of our family. God knew what he was doing when he put us together. Of course, the joke's on him because now he has to deal with a menopausal wife. I mean, you reap what you sow, right? Just kidding, a little bit. I am thankful to God. Praise the Lord!