There are a hundred little things that swirl around me at any given time. I find that I am making lists in different places and hoping I don't forget it all. I wanted changes. I signed up for them the way that someone signs up for all of the bids in a silent auction hoping for one or two, but not all of them... not all at the same time. Here's the thing. I knew about it. I was hoping that things would be scattered, and some of it has been, but for the most part, a lot of it is just happening.
What am I changing? I'm changing my name. I'm changing my health. I'm changing my domicile around to accommodate our newest member and his cat. I'm changing my claim to the knowledge I have obtained. These bigger changes are leading to the smaller things. The little things that make up our lives.
I am not trying to be too busy not to pray. I am not trying to be too busy not to be in the word. I'm busy doing a lot of little things but I am hoping to be found in prayer and in meditation of the Word of God. I'm not competent enough to do it all by myself. I need my God with me all the time. When I read, "pray without ceasing" I'm thankful and not overloaded. I can't even imagine checking in with a friend or relative the way I check in with God, constantly. There's like an on-going monologue of prayer to Him on most of these days. How do you deal with your anxiety? Prayer. Jesus. What are some of your coping skills? Prayer. Jesus. Reading the Word because the Bible will tell me what to do. Friends, walk with me in my life. I definitely don't have it all together but I am thankful to serve a God that does. How hard is it to say, "I will trust in God." and actually do it? So hard, Friends, but worth it.
I am going to miss things. I am going to miss the boat completely on some things. If I have done it with you, forgive me. I'm not perfect but God is and I'm so grateful for that. Praise the Lord!
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