There are some days that are brilliant and light filled with goodness and joy every second of every day. There are days that are tiring and hard and each tick of the clock brings you closer to the grateful end of the day. There are seasons that are dark and heavy. There are seasons that are colorful, bright and warm. As I sit here writing, my heart is thankful. We are in a season of thankfulness.
I was scrolling on Facebook and a picture from 4 years ago popped up. Even as I looked, I could see the sadness peeking out from within my eyes. I flinched looking at the hard memories. I could remember the pain and loneliness only to flash back and be where I am. I remember the goodness of the Lord. God has brougnt me to where I am right now. I am not living in the same place. I am not working in the same place. I don't have the degree I thought I would have. What am I going to do with a degree in Leadership? I am married when, for a while there, I thought I would never marry again. God is in control.
I'm writing these things not to complain but just to say that things can keep on changing. I am not who I was last year, never mind who I was when I was much younger. A social media person was dancing to 80s songs and I was brought right back to who I was when I was a teenager. Now I have teenagers living in my life. Life goes by too fast. Here's the thing, things will continue to change.
I would like to have some good moments every day. I would like to remember the good times when the sad days, when the bad days get too heavy. I want to lift up my hands and eyes and give thanks to God from Whom all blessings flow. I can see that at my age, I am looking at slowly rolling down the other side of my life. I want it to be an easy and happy trip. In the meantime, Praise the Lord!