About two weeks ago, I was in a small car accident. It was more like a car incident. In any case, I reported it to my insurance and I called the other cars insurance to see if I can get my very minor damages covered. The whole situation was not as black and white as I would have liked it to be but in talking with my husband, he said not to be surprised if I was found liable. In other words, there was a possibility that I would be found in the wrong. I fought this label very hard. I was not in the wrong!!! I mean there I was driving my car, minding my business, trying to get home and CRASH! There was other things that didn't feel right either. Again, the purpose of this post is not to get people on my side but to explore this process that I went through.
I recently heard back from the insurance company and they deemed me, "in the wrong." I'm still fighting it. This whole thing has made me feel very insecure about my driving and my capabilities. I feel that I am a very capable driver so it is hard for me to accept, if possible, user error. Why do I fight this so hard? Am I so good that I can't be deemed in the wrong? I can tell you that I know me and I'm not so right. In fact, there is nothing really about me that is in the right... except Jesus.
Romans 3:10 tells us that there is none righteous. Yes, I said it right, not a one. God is the one who redeems us and makes us righteous. After being in my ego for a while and having to confront my... what is it called again? Humanity, having to confront my humanity. I now have a lot of things to talk myself into: getting my mind ready to start work again; summer cleaning the house and working on things that should have been done but are not. What are those things? I don't really want to talk about it because there is a possibility I may not be able to complete a goal. My fragile ego is taking some blows but God is with me and He makes me righteous. I need to trust in God.
Confession is good for the soul. As I get ready to go and do things that need to be done, what do you need to talk to yourself about? I can't be the only one, can I? In any case, even if I am, praise the Lord!