Don't Lean on What You Understand

 There are options before me.  I think I have been talking about the exciting life of transitions.  There is so much going on.  Here is the thing that people don't really realize.  For every degree in a circle, that is how many options there are out there.  At any time, there could be 360 degrees of options.  Let me try to explain.  \

Tomorrow, God willing, I will wake up.  Let me list for you some of the things that I could do...

Maybe I could write a novel

Maybe I could wake up and clean the bathroom.

Maybe I could weed the yard, or lounge all day in a tub, or eat pizza, or play frisbee.

Obviously I could go on for a while about my Saturday mornings; I think you get the hint.  Well, here I am in my life and I confess to sometimes having small thoughts even though I serve a Big God.  The other day I was wondering if I would be able to get a decent job for the next school year as a teacher.  I was talking with my husband and he tells me, "Elle, you are in a high demand job.  Are you really worried?"  And he's absolutely right.  Now all I have to ask is, "What do I want?"  But, instead of asking that, I have decided, "What does God want to do with this little life that I have?"  I'm still breathing, so I must have a purpose to fulfill. 

I prayed.  I prayed fervently to God for clarity.  I'm not sure if this is an appropriate prayer but inevitably, I find that we should all pray to our Good God from the heart with all our concerns and intentions.  And I'm still praying.  Why is praying for clarity not appropriate?  What if praying for clarity turns out to eliminate options until only one option is available?  Is this the way we should feel about the will of our Sovereign God?  You see, I'm not so sure and right now this thought is too big to think about so... I'm stepping back from this very deep thought and I'm looking up and once again relying not on my own thoughts but on the amazing plan and will of God. Praise the Lord!