I am on a weight-loss journey. I have lost about 80 pounds. I started this journey at the end of 2022. It has been about 2 full years. Last year I had some trouble with my thyroid, and I was really stuck at a certain weight for about 6 months. I was placed on thyroid medication, and I think I am at the right dosage.
I have gone through so many clothes. Even now as I'm typing, I know that I will have to go through most of the clothes in my closet. I am not even close to my goal weight. I sometimes find myself standing in the closet just looking at my clothing collection. I don't try on everything because I know that there are many clothes that will not fit. I don't know about you but there are many clothes that I have come to love. I have so many clothes and shoes. These clothes are bound to not fit me in a few years. Here is the question: What clothes will represent me when I reach my goal weight? What would I look like? Who will I be? Already I am changing. I am one of those people who cross her legs. I am one of those people who sit cross legged on the bed talking with my handsome husband. I couldn't do that before.
There are aspects of this weight loss journey that is psychological. There are aspects that are hard. I find that I am harder on myself than anyone else. I like to push myself. This whole thing is a learning experience. I am not just physically changing; I am changing parts of who I am. I think I'm looking forward to looking different. And yet, I am aging. I tell myself that I am a Boho Viejita Baddie. I like this image of myself in rompers of differing colors. I have taken to wearing headbands and funky earrings. I like the edgy boho look of the 90s. I find myself wearing black tights and boots with skirts and t-shirts. The quintessential teacher look that seems to become me fine.
Who knows how I will redo my closet? Who knows what clothes I will gravitate to? I am reinventing myself and I don't really have to know now, do I? In any case, Praise the Lord!
You have accomplished so much and it's not the pounds - it is indeed the psychological. Remember to enjoy the journey. As I've lost 50 lbs in the direction of getting healthy. I'm finally ready to revamp my style. Congrats on your journey and wishing you continued success!
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