You don't know about this but I sit here wasting time. I spent the day wasting time. Ask me what I did. I woke up late. I rested. I cooked food with my darling husband. We cleaned a little bit, and that was it! I spent the rest of the time crocheting this afghan I am making for my living room. I like getting lost in the colors. They are autumn happy colors that I enjoy blending together. I was supposed to be working on something. I was supposed to be doing something important, like filling out job applications and helping along on what is next in my life. But is that trusting God?
I think what the real problem could be is that trusting God is hard. Have I said this before? I'm pretty sure that I have mentioned this before. Here we are in the middle of the desert of uncertainty and there doesn't really seem to be any resolutions or solutions and we look up to the sky. We don't think that the answer is up there. We need to know that the answer is there. Do you want to know where I come up with this crazy idea? You will never guess... or maybe you will. It's found in the Bible.
Psalm 121 says:
"I lift up my eyes to the hills-- where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. He will not let your foot slip-- He who watches over you will not slumber; indeed, He who watches over Israel will neither slumber nor sleep. The LORD watches over you-- the Lord is your shade at your right hand; the sun will not har you by day, nor the moon by night. The LORD will keep you from all harm-- He will watch over your life; the LORD will watch over your coming and going both now and forevermore."
Is this not exactly the answer to the problems? Now tell my heart. Tell my fear. Tell the part of me that wants to freak out and imagines the worst case scenario. I recently came across John 14:26:
"But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whome the Father will send in My name, He will teach you all things, and bring to your rememberance all things that I said to you."
So, I am praying to the Holy Spirit to help me remember and to be taught all the things to get me through things. Like, when I feel like I'm going to worry, I remember that God tell me not to worry-- Matthew 6:34. He tells me to cast my anxiety on Him-- 1 Peter 5:7. He tells me to accept His peace-- John 14:27.
Now that I have had this moment, I am going to pray and instead of feeling guilty about what I call my wasted day, I am going to give God thanks for time spent enjoyably with my family in fellowship and rest. I needed some rest and I am thankful. Praise the Lord! Praise God! Amen!