In this season, I find it hard to get myself away and write. I will be walking and the wind will pick up just enough, then I will come up with some peaceful, brilliant thought only to not have my keyboard at the ready. There are crunchy leaves on the campus that I am currently work on. I love the sound of the crunch as step on them. It's such a simple pleasure.
It wasn't long ago when I was walking along with the trees and the grass all around me that I have realized that God has answered some prayers for me. It was not that long ago that I was working in a place that made me long for the sun on my face. I went home to the husband I never thought I would have again and I sat down and told him, "I think I prayed for this. I think I prayed for the opportunity to walk in the sun and have the smell of cut grass and the sound of swaying leaves in my ears." He told me that I told him that same thing. "Maybe you did pray for it." They even let me wear my sneakers... every day. God is good to me.
There are things in the mix. We need to move. I need to finish school. I want to pay down my debt and get in shape. I want to read more books. I want to keep writing. Even with my laundry list of wants and needs, I think I want God to write His story upon my life in such a way that you can recognize His writing. I want to be the paper, blank. Maybe I'm the pen and the ink is in Elle color. The pen I imagine is a marble gel pen and the color changes as you write.
So... things are not perfect, but God is so good and life is short. Just yesterday I was in high school. I promise you that I BLINKED and all of a sudden I'm facing fifty... FIFTY!!! I am grateful for every second. God has a plan and He is trustworthy. When you get into his car, he says, "Get in and enjoy the ride." I'm enjoying the ride. Join me. Praise the Lord!